Praise to God for giving me this opportunity to share my testimony. My name is AnuRekha and as God planned I was born in a Hindu family in India and He had plans for me before the foundation of this earth and made my salvation possible even before I stepped into this world.
Even as a young child I had a desire to know the spiritual world and because the environment around me was not Biblical, it opened the doors for deceiving spirits to torment me, filling my mind with so much deception that I felt I was living in illusion and some gods where just manipulating my life for their own cause thus I had no worth in eternity. I was clueless about my own identity.
I have one elder sister, one younger brother and a youngest is a sister but the family relations were not so good so I grew up more confused about myself, hating myself and this world. Looking back to those times I can sense the darkness which occupied my life prior to the time I knew of Christ. I often felt unloved and uncared. My father was good but because the devil often worked through him, he sometimes would become aggressive and abusive. When we are unsaved the devil have power over our lives (even now my family is unsaved but because I am saved , I see the good works of God in my family too. If we believe in Christ, God said He will save and bless our family too). We lived in cold Christian society so even in midst of Christians I had no idea who Christ was, though I celebrated Christmas and would sometimes run to Church functions too.
I can say that I suffered from dual individuality during my early years because I had two very strong conflicting spirits in me. In one I felt so worthless and hateful and in the other I felt so loved and precious to my Creator though I didn’t knew Him yet the seed of love was already sown in my heart by the LORD Himself. One moment I wished I would die and the other moment I would brim with joy and live within me. Well, the good remained and the bad passed away at my salvation.
My testimony is not like some people have in which they encounter God and suddenly the rest of their life is changed rather the first thing that happened in my life which had now become my greatest strength is ‘I first fell in love with Christ and than the rest of things followed’ it was much prior to my salvation. No one was there to answer bundles of questions about religions which I had and neither was anyone to guide me to walk with the LORD. Let me say that it was all for good as the LORD Himself became my Constant Companion Who poured me His amazing love on me and all my questions blew out when I knew Him and His Glory.
This all happened when I was nine years old. As I had already mentioned that I always felt so loved and special from the time I knew myself though I knew not Who loved me. So, in fifth standard when I read about Christ in Moral Science I immediately felt in love with this personality called Jesus Christ because my spirit knew He was the One for Whom my soul had been thirsty for so long. Youngsters have crush on their friends or say sometimes teachers but my first crush and first love was my Master and till today and forever I am not going to lose that beautiful feeling of being in love with my Creator. It was taught in our class that Christ is the LORD though nothing much was taught about salvation yet the only thing that impacted me most was 'Christ is my best friend.' I didn’t know how to pray accept praying the LORD’s prayer which we did in school but teachers in school had taught us to talk with the LORD and that is exactly what I am going to this day. People often called me crazy because I would sit alone and smile and always I made excuses that I was thinking of some funny incident and smiling; where in reality I would talk to the LORD in my heart and few things would make me smile. Now when people ask me to share my testimony I cannot hold the very big smile on my face which is right now too but tell me is there anything better than sharing about the One you love most.
No story is complete until you know that you are a sinner and you need a Savior Who is the LORD over your life. I grew up believing in Christ and loving Him more and more by each passing day. I often fasted and prayed. I was always found reading the Bible and sometimes talking and sharing about the LORD yet I didn’t knew that I was still bound in the chains of religion and rituals that tied my feet and often tried to slip me away from walking with the LORD. God knew my heart and He purposed a good plan for me that I would know Him personally and be saved by faith in Him alone. When the chores of life took over me than gaps and holes started to appear in my relationship with the LORD though how much I tried yet there was an emptiness which I was not able to fill. I desired to follow Him like a shadow follows on whom the light shines but I didn’t know where I was lacking. God had compassion on me and He brought me to a Crusade where I realized that I was a sinner who walked with both God and traditions of men together. There I choose Him (He choose me first) and He set me free from all bondage of sins and saved me from eternal damnation; promising me with live everlasting because I had come to Him in repentance and brokenness of heart with only one desire to follow Him all the days of my life and for eternity. Now, He became my Savior, my LORD and my Eternal Bridegroom with whom I earnestly desire to live forevermore.
On the day of my salvation when I was 18 years old I saw people receiving Holy Spirit but I was there crying to the LORD without the touch of the Holy Spirit that others were blessed with. After my salvation it was the best thing that I desired and prayed to the LORD about it. I was saved in April 2006. God have an answer for our prayers and He accomplishes it in wonderful way of which we cannot even imagine. On 5th August 2006 in a Revival, God blessed me with His Spirit when I plead to the LORD that either He bless me or take my life away because I cannot live feeling distant from Him. As in Psalms 45:9 I always wanted to be like the queen in the old of Ophir. God in His grace and love have given us His Spirit who guides our path and leads us in the way of the LORD. Greater blessing awaited me on the next day as again the LORD sent His Spirit on me and I knew the awesome glory and presence of God that changed my life altogether.
My family being an unbeliever and as the LORD spoke through few people my persecution began at the door of His house. My mother called me and from there began the showers of curses from my near ones but the Spirit of God was in me and the LORD gave me peace and joy in the midst of all tribulations that I faced. (Let me make it clear that I have forgiven and holds no grudges against those who hurted me and so my spirit is free from the bondage of unforgiveness.) It was all for a good cause because that raised me up to the person that I am today who have known the LORD beyond the doctrines of men, in His Power and Majesty. I love to call myself blessed because I have seen many blessing of LORD which I cannot even count. It’s not that life was and is easy and I faced no trials rather I’ll say that God tested me through fire but because of His love, grace and mercy and my unwavering in His goodness and greatness above my problems had helped me to stand on the brighter side which brought deliverance to me. God is so Awesome that my problems just fade in His Glory and than His lights shines on me. If I start writing all the details it will be a very long testimony so in short I’ll say that I am because HE IS.
The LORD brought me out of the wilderness that I went through after receiving His Spirit and when I stood for my faith boldly in front of the people I loved, God added more blessings in my portion. He gave me favor from people all around me and also from my family too. They see the good works of God in my life and yes I am trying to be a testimony of the LORD to the people around me so that they will know the LORD too and be saved. I want to be a fruitful vine in the garden of the LORD and may the LORD make me a blessing to this generation. Amen.